Stream of Consciousness Sunday: Stop the Merry Go Round!

I usually write my post on Saturday night – usually late at night – and publish it shortly before I nod off to sleep. These days, I schedule it to post at 12:01am eastern time. Technically, it’s still Saturday for my West Coast friends but it’s already halfway through Sunday for my South Pacific friends (hi guys! I love you!).

Tonight, I have to admit, my brain was empty. I’m fried. Totally. Between packing and all the paperwork that comes with buying and selling houses, keeping up with this blog, and launching a new business and website, I’m pretty lacking on sleep and it’s showing. So that’s what I ended up writing about in a roundabout way.

Today’s (optional) Writing Prompt: What is success to you and how will you know when you achieve it?

Here we go…

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I hate writing with exclamation points. It always feels fake and contrived. Or if it’s not fake, it just seems too perky!!! See what I mean?

But I said to Stop the Merry Go Round! with and real emphasis. It’s how I’m feeling. I’m fine. I really am. But life definitely feels like a merry go round. It’s fast and the scenery is constantly changing and sometimes it just makes you feel nauseous. And sometimes it makes you want to close your eyes. And sometimes it makes you want to get off.

Norah Jones (who my husband loves to call Bore-ah Jones from a SNL skit that came up with that – doesn’t matter, I still love her) has this song I just love called “Carnival Town.” The first few verses go like this:

Round ‘n round
Carousel
Has got you under it’s spell
Moving so fast…but
Going nowhere

Up ‘n down
Ferris wheel
Tell me how does it feel
To be so high…
Looking down here

I used to listen to this back when I was in the corporate world. And I got it. I mean, I got it. And  never wanted to feel that way again. I wanted to do something that felt good. That had meaning but still spelled success.

I’ve finally reached that point in my life. I’m writing, which I love to do. I’m working with my new partner, Heidi (and we’re totally kindred spirits even though our lives are nothing alike) on Charitable Influence. Perfect, right? It’s a beautiful thing and I’m excited and proud. And yet the merry go round just started spinning a little faster.

 

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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

• Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
• Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
• Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
• Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
• Link up your post below.
• Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.

Now…

1. Grab the button

(it’s over in the sidebar)

2. Write your post.

3. Link up here.