Another Sunday, another post. I go into more detail in my brain dump below but I was going to wait and write this Sunday morning. Sunday is my husband’s birthday. I wanted to wake up on a Sunday morning and gush about him. I think I’ll do that another day when I can put more thought into it.
Logistically, I thought it would be best to go ahead and post early with the linky. Again, I apologize if I haven’t hit your blog recently. I like to read each and every post but it’s been a little crazy. I always appreciate you coming by and linking up!
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I was going to wait to write my post. I didn’t want to do another Saturday night post. I found that lately I’ve been in a more sullen mood in the evenings than on Sunday mornings. Sunday morning just feels like a time of rebirth for me every week. I miss the Sunday morning writing. I’ll think about a better way to do this so I can have the linky up but maybe wait and do my actual post in the morning.
Regardless, I had a good Saturday morning feeling today and I’ve tried to keep it all day. It’s been a laze at home and just be comfortable kind of day. We went out but we didn’t focus on doing anything productive. Just ate lunch, went shopping, blew bubbles, took a nap.
I think I felt good today because I had a good cry last night. I’ know I’ve written before about sometimes feeling emotionally numb. I felt a lot of things weighing on my mind. Not personal things this time. Just the weight of the world.
I was reading about a boy who took his life due to bullying. I read about Jeff Conaway, the actor from Grease and Taxi who lost his life to drug addiction. I took my dog for a walk and thought about my neighbor who moved away yesterday. The one who sold his dream house that he built with his wife because she passed away 2 years ago. Then I walked past my other neighbor’s house. Her husband died suddenly about 2 months ago. I remembered walking the dog every night and chatting with him as he putzed in the garage,
Change is inevitable. Last night, I really got that it’s all just a bunch of moving parts. And we don’t really realize it all the time. I had to force the cry a little bit. I knew I needed it though and once I finally let go, the tears poured and it felt cleansing.
Today is a new day and guess what? So is tomorrow.
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first, happy birthday to your husband! second, I’m sorry you were feeling so weighed down… that happens to me sometimes too, and I agree – it’s definitely no fun. I’m glad the cry helped, and that you’ll be able to start your Sunday feeling clear-headed & rejuvinated.
I’ve not linked up but once in the last month or so because I haven’t had much time to visit all the other link-uppers, but I’m fairly certain I’ll be dumping in the morning… I just LOVE drama filled 1:30am phone calls… two hours later I’m finally heading to bed… *sigh*
good night, I hope you get a good nights rest Fadra!
Happy Birthday to your husband!
A good cry can certainly help me clear my head and bring things into better focus. I’m glad you’re feeling better about things now. It’s hard, the realization that the world is always changing, ever evolving and that there’s nothing we can do to stop it from happening. Those are heavy thoughts, especially when several things hit you at once.
Hang in there! I hope you feel better tomorrow and that you enjoy the day with your husband!
I’m so jealous of your Sunday morning rebirths. Sunday mornings are grumpy-I-didn’t-get-enough-sleep-and-damn-the-week-starts-over-tomorrow for me. Seriously, super jealous.
Glad you’re feeling better this Sunday. A good cry is a good thing. Sometimes, we just need to do that. Here’s to a great week ahead.
Happy Birthday to your husband! I’m glad that the cry helped you. I also give myself permission to have a good cry every now in then because I feel it’s necessary. It reminds me that I’m only human and that my feelings are still there (if that makes sense). And, I always feel better afterwards.
Happy Birthday to your husband! I am glad your feeling better, a good cry always seems to make a difference for me too! Have a wonderful Sunday!
Funny, I was going to write mine last night; I seem to be supremely grumpy on Sunday mornings. However,when I quit working at 3:30am, there was no consciousness left to stream. lol
I’m sorry you’ve felt the weight of the world, a good cry can definitely be cleansing and I’m glad you were able to have that so you could relieve some of the pressure inside. Change is inevitable but knowing that doesn’t make it any easier.