The pressure you place on yourself can often be the worst of all. “What if I don’t post?” I asked myself over the past two weeks. And as I suspected, the world kept turning. We need consistency in our lives but we also need well-placed breaks. I hope you’ll forgive me of mine and join in this week.
Here’s my 5 minute brain dump…
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I’ve missed the last two Sundays and it’s been totally intentional. It’s fun and games when you’re writing about hair or kids or something else that has the surface of superficiality. The reality is that the last two weeks have been some of the hardest in my entire life. And I’m caught in a situation where I don’t want to write about it, can’t write about it, wish I could write about it.
So instead, I’ve carried on. I’ve written my sponsored posts and talked about movies and Disney and all the fun that’s occurred over the past few weeks. But the hurt runs deep and the hurt often stays buried inside. Just like with your job.
You have a day that feels almost impossible but someone offers you a bagel and you say okay. Or you’re stuck at the bus stop when the last thing you want is to make idle chit chat but you do anyway. We make new fairy tales for ourselves every day. And even though we joke about it, everyone has their own personal hell to deal with and not everyone has their own little corner of the internet with which to deal.
Today, I ask that you extend me a little kindness (not that you wouldn’t) and just remember that others are dealing with an often unbearable amount of pain even if you don’t know it or see it.
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Sending hugs and love to you Fadra!
Taking them. Thanks!
Sending hugs. I too have been dealing with a situation about which I desperately need to talk but cannot. Sometimes I amazed I have to go to work and contribute, go to meetings, etc., while I feel like my world is falling apart. It is surreal.
Instead I write about fun things but it makes me see how easy it is to judge other people based on what we see online and how we never really know a person’s situation. I hope you have a brighter tomorrow. I’m here to say that it CAN get better. That’s what I’m working on.
I’m sending hugs too! I hate tough times.
Thank you. In the grand scheme of things, my tough times aren’t so tough but I’m dealing with it the best I can!
Tough times aren’t one size fits all. So don’t minimize whatever you are dealing with just because someone else might have it worse. 😉
Are you living my life? I feel what you are saying, whatever your circumstances – feel the slack and the love and the compassion I offer. Now I’m going to dump MY brain, too.
This piece, upon re-reading it this morning, is such a mess. It barely even makes sense. Which I guess makes complete sense. A true brain dump for me. Off to read yours!
I tell that to my kids all of the time. You never know what someone is going through because you can’t see behind their closed doors. So practice love and understanding no matter what. Feel better and know good thoughts are being sent your way!