Stream of Consciousness Sunday: Rearranging My Life

The house has officially sold. It’s a done deal. We closed on Friday and officially turned the deed over to someone else. But we haven’t moved yet. We’re renting our own house for the next 2 weeks. It feels a little weird because it doesn’t feel like someone else’s house. But at least the first step in this long arduous process of moving has been completed. Probably the hardest part.

As I’m busy packing, the anxiety is lessening but the emotions keep flowing. And they’re not all bad.

Today’s (Optional) Writing Prompt: How do you feel about change? Do you like routine and predictability? Does it bring you comfort or discontent? Talk about it general or tell us a specific story about a big change in your life and how you feel about it.

Here we go…

stream of consciousness Sunday

My mother always rearranged the furniture in our house. I don’t know how she did it but she always found a million different ways to configure the same pieces of furniture. And I loved it.

I loved it when it time to rearrange or when we came home and suddenly everything was different. It felt new and it felt fresh. For some reason, I always find it difficult to do that in my house. I don’t know if it’s because my furniture is too big or heavy. Or maybe because we bought most of our furniture FOR this house and so everything fits just right. But I do like change.

Not big drastic, change-my-life kind of change but I like things to be different. When I get a new car, it feels exciting to walk outside and say Oh! New car! It lasts about 30 days. When I have new shoes, I get excited to put them on in the morning. When I worked in a office, it was switching offices. It felt like a brand new job and I was reinvigorated, for just a little bit anyway.

As I’m gearing up to move, I’m still running the gamut of emotions. I cried when I left my husband’s aunt’s house last weekend after dinner. I cried when I visiting my beloved vet who has been with me through 3 pets losses over 15 years. I can’t even think about leaving the mama robin in the next behind my house before the baby birdies have taken flight.

But I am looking forward to change. A new path to drive everyday. New people and stories. New grocery store, post office, hair cut place. Dentist, doctor, yoga studio, massage therapist. Everything is new. WIll be new. WIll be changing. And while there is plenty of anxiety that goes with that, I feel like we’re finally rearranging the furniture after many many years.

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
  • Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
  • Link up your post below.
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Now…

1. Grab the button

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2. Write your post.

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  • http://twitter.com/momma23monkeys Robbie K

    I relate to every single part of this. I find myself crying most often in the car-when I drive by the first park we took our kids to, the preschool my oldest son attended, the park where we would go feed the ducks. I know there will be new memories in the new place but leaving behind the physical landmarks of the days gone by is just so damn heartbreaking.

  • http://twitter.com/brittanyciara Brittany Ciara

    I change up my room a lot for the same reasons. It’s my little “home” until I’m able to move out. I know I’d cry over the little things, but I love what you said: “a new path to drive.” That’s exactly it for me, that’s what makes change so exciting.

    Happy to be linking up again this week, thanks for hosting. :) 

  • Kenya Johnson

    I totally feel you on that gamut of emotions – been there done that (military). I think once you lay your head in your own permanent space, you’ll wake up and anxiety will be gone. It’s really exciting and dreadful at the same time!

  • Leah

    I love change too.  My mom always (and still does) rearrange her furniture often.  I find myself doing the same.  I said this in my post, but I’m challenging myself to change a few things this week.  Thanks for this prompt.

  • Melissa_FillingOurBucket

    Great topic!! How I react to change totally depends on whether or not it was my decision. I’ve never gotten emotional over a change that was my decision. But I know when we move out of this house, or when my parents move out of their house someday (that they have been in 37 years and counting) it will be very hard.

  • Melisa

    We are truly kindred spirits because reading this was…like reading something in my very own mind. I’m a happy for you and look forward to your post as you acclimate to your new city!

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  • Ash

    Good luck on your new adventure! You have the right attitude to make it work for you and your family. New is always exciting.

  • KallayCarr

    I love this post! My mom always rearranges her furniture, too, and I have the same feeling about my own. There’s really no rearranging in here, especially with the girls. I ache for change though, sometimes. I love having something new to do or see. I really enjoy the feeling of having something different in my life. Enjoy your new home and exploring your new area.  

  • http://twitter.com/dutchbeingme Julie

    I think that’s such a great way to think about it – rearranging the furniture. I can’t wait to see the great things that lie ahead for you — and for myself. Thank you for this prompt today. :)

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  • http://pinkguayoyo.com/ Helenabeatriz

    Hi! I am always thinking about how I would rearrange my house but never do it. I like change, change is good, but I am always scared of it at first. 

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  • http://mjdresselbooks.wordpress.com/ Mary

    Fadra, I wish you luck with all the new changes in your life. You sound more excited than anything. Happy your house sold and you’re out from under that, free to move on now. Here’s to a new life full of exciting changes. 

  • a.eye

    Excellent post that was right on time for my life right now.  I still love rearranging a room and doing different things with people and with my looks, and can’t really figure out why that doesn’t translate to the big areas of change in my life.

  • http://guerrillamom.blogspot.com/ Guerrilla Mom

    Good luck!  It sounds exciting!  I am so ready to move somewhere suburban- Brooklyn motherhood is wearing me down.  I want a backyard, a driveway, a car… Good luck with the new changes :)

  • http://www.raising-humans.com/ Tricia

    I used to love moving the furniture around too. But we haven’t done it in the 5 years we’ve been in this house. Like you, we are moving (and renting back) and I know very well the range of emotions you’re going through. Change is fun for the mind but rough on the soul.

  • http://www.ladybluejay.com/ Jayla

    My dad was in the Army so we moved around a lot. I learned to accept change at an early age. However, it’s the uncertainty of the future that makes me anxious.

    Good luck with your move! I hope everything goes smoothly.

  • http://lostandforgotten.wordpress.com/ Marta

    Congrats on closing! I feel the same way as you about change. Its just exciting. New. I love new. I often rearranged my room as a kid and it was great. We’ve lived in our house for 4 years and I haven’t moved a single thing. Maybe its time that I do. =)

  • Bocafrau

    I love to rearrange my furniture and do it every so often. Even my kids will let me do their rooms every once in a while. Good luck with the packing and the move. 

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  • http://www.CleverCompass.com/ Alissa Enders

    Hooray for change and your great attitude about it. I hope it’s totally reinvigorating for you. Also, have you heard of MomSharz (blog network) here in Baltimore? If not, shoot me a DM.

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