Guess who’s back for 5 minutes on a Sunday? But I’m no longer the host. I’m just a happy participant with Jana from Jana’s Thinking Place. And today’s writing prompt? Anticipation.
A few weeks ago, someone on Facebook asked if there was a theme song for your life. Or it was something along those lines. I thought for a minute and then wrote the first thing that popped into my mind.
“Waiting for my Real Life to Begin” by Colin Hay (the guy with the weird eye from Men At Work).
It’s a beautiful song. Any minute now, my ship is coming in. I keep checking the horizon.
These days I don’t have anticipation for much. Excitement, maybe. I’m excited for Evan to start kindergarten. I’m excited to head to BlogHer next week. I’m excited about the cooler weather for the fall. But anticipation indicates more of an anxiety-ridden waiting period.
And if I have to truly think about what I’m anticipating? It’s wondering how the rest of my life is going to turn out. Some days I love the state I’m in. (Mentally, not physically). I love what I’m doing professionally but I’m not where I need to be. Not where I need to be to completely satisfy my husband and I’m not where I need to be to feel personal and professional success on my own terms.
I’m waiting for my ship to come in but I’m also in a little rowboat working hard to meet it somewhere out in the water.